Freakin Sweet

I got cast in a play today.  It is called "Cheating Death."  I am going to play Death. 

The director said I looked the part. 

I had no idea I looked so awsome.

I almost completly deleted my xanga site.  When it told me that once I did I could never get it back I decided I couldn't let it go.  My heart could not go on. 

I redid it so that it embarrassed me less. At least I think It does. 

Last night I was reading old emails that I had sent when I first got email.  They were from my time on STF and before.  I was so bubbly I couldn't stand it.  Bubblier than any man should be.  I was calling every one super cool and trying to make them happy by making every sentence a joke, compliment, or spiritual insight I had.  Reading them reminded me that there was once a time were I believed that every one was good.  I was good.  You were good.  All I had to do was be good and float with goodness and everything would be good in the end

I miss being like that, but I know it is no use.  It turns out that being good is not good enough.  You have to be strong.  You have to be focused.  You need goals and you need to work.  You need to be respect and sometimes feared.  Sometime showing someone true love, might make them hate you.  It turns out that I am not as qualified to as one might have guessed.  One meaning me. 

I miss floating.  I miss the weightlessness of ignorance.  I miss not thinking about anything but the next wave to float on.  I miss ignoring everything but what made me happy.  I miss not caring.

I am not writing this to get pity.  I just wanted to be honest.

Becoming an Adult is Hard as Hell, it better work out in the end or I will be pissed. 

I said just kidding about the whole Gwen hoover thing because saying so on a list of wierd things about me implies that a high regard of Gwen is slightly unthinkable and That is something I know is untrue. 

 Thus the JKs

I tag Lucus

I was tagged and I looking for something to do

Once you are tagged you MUST write an entry about 6 weird habits/things as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next six people to be tagged and list their names. "

1.   I would rather eat a raw red pepper then an apple

2.   I saw a colony of ants that store nector in their butts and was excited beyond belief

3.   I am sort of excited when I get a pimple because then i can pop it

4.   I listen to Turkish pop as I drive

5.   I talk to myself
6.   I thing Gwen Hoover is cool.  Jk JK

I tag anyone who wants it.  Go for it dude

Here are some pictures from Turkey.  It was a great time.  I learned a lot about Turkey and myself.  Everything I do brings me closer to what I truely am. 

A horrible picture of Two new good firends of mine.  Tom and Rebecca are very excited to be in Turkey.

Check out the creepy guy in the back ground.

Wendy in awe at the Beauty of the Blue Mosque.

Part of the Blue Mosque that faces Mecca

The Blue Mosque from the outside.

The enterance to what was the Sultans Palace

Sunset on the Euphratis.  I am on my way to Asia.

In Turkey the divide between the rich and the Poor is very dramatic. 

A door like this

and this

can be only a block away.

These pictures are only from the first few days of the trip.

I should promise to post more picures later but I don't think I will.